Quick blog on how I perceive reality and the need for ‘subtitles’…
Good news everyone: I am still alive!
It’s a foggy and cold start to what is unofficially called a ‘hump day’ and dreading how the next hour of my life may unfold. Of course it means I am running through possible scenarios, which I categorise as high, medium or low in likelihood.
It starts with trying to predict how long I will have to endure waiting amongst actually sick people in the busy waiting room, leads my thoughts to what wonderful new variants of the common cold I could pick up and ends with total confusion as to what I should actually say to my GP to get the ball rolling. After all, neuro-typicals don’t like a blunt approach and while he is my GP he is also a human being, so I aim to be considerate.
What makes you happy? Do you know? Do you really ever know what makes you happy?
My mind right now tells me there is no happiness to be found and everything makes me upset. It is hard to motivate myself to feel happy or “live in the moment”. The jeux de vivre, as the French call it, I used to have is now misplaced – like that one glove of your favourite pair, just as you are about to head out into a cold day.
It is a beautiful start to the day and my girl friend confirms this and wishes me a good morning too, after I share that pretty photo of my sun rise with her as she begins her morning routine.
Some like it busy, some like it not. I like either depending on the situation and people. You rarely see me without at least a trusted friend in a public place with many people though. It really makes me uncomfortable…
Boy do I think! Not in the “I have lots of thoughts going around my mind” way but more like “Inputs! Process all the things”.
Everybody has their preferences and we are all unique in our own sometimes quirky ways. I have some that I rather specific due to my brain’s wiring.
Sorry, if you googled the title of this post and were looking for the original character from Douglas Adam’s increasingly inaccurate trilogy about Life, the Universe and Everything, you will be disappointed to find this ‘guide’ has nothing to do with it.
Don’t Panic! Welcome to Ford’s guide on living with autism as an adult.
Warning: this blog contains occasional swearing and touches on topics like mental health, depression, etc. Some viewers/readers may find this disturbing. The views expressed on this blog and YouTube channel are Ford’s and Ford’s alone. Here be dragons…